Then My Heels Busted

I remember seeing a confident business woman, walking down a busy sidewalk in her executive suit, pristine and poised, until one of her heels broke.  Her mobility hit a speed bump.  All of the sudden, her confident gate became a frustrated and panicked limp...but she kept going.  It was obvious that she had somewhere to be, and she couldn't afford to let her busted heel keep her from her destination.

My life was my posh, executive heels.  I had (and still have) a career.  I had a husband.  I had a child.  We were a family.  I was confident.  When my ex-husband began to get restless and distant, I could feel a wobble in my heels.  They were still in tact, though, and I kept going.  When we separated, and he informed me that he had found another woman, one of my heels broke completely off.  I was so determined to keep going, that I didn't stop.  All of the sudden, I was that woman on the sidewalk.  Trying desperately to keep my balance and reach my destination, though I wasn't sure exactly where I was going.  I had to keep moving.  I stumbled the day I filed for divorce.  I stumbled again when the battles began.  I fell when the divorce was final.  The reality that it was over, that I would never reach whatever destination I was trying to reach, knocked me down.  The realization that I was on my own, with all the same bills, half the income and a child to raise, nailed me to the ground.  I was paralyzed.  My confident world was shattered.  Then it happened. The unwavering and undeserved grace of God picked me up and He handed me a pair of tennis shoes.  When I put them on, I didn't walk with the "business executive" confidence that I had before.  I ran.  I ran with more strength and courage than I had ever run before. There were slippery spots through custody and child support battles, but I kept running. There were uneven trails with single parenting, but I kept running.  I am running still.  I run with a new confidence that whatever obstacle I face, I can rely on the mercy of God to carry me when I can't do it on my own.  Thank you, Heavenly Father for that.  

The biggest lesson I have learned: When your heels are busted, change shoes.